since this year begin, i felt that I'm entering a new chapter of my life. a new season has come, or i just want to leave the season and be prepared to enter a new season. this year is the last year I'm in twenties. this December my age will be 30, that's mean I enter a new decade of my life.
Looking backward my life, i remembered 10 years ago, well, nine years one and half month ago. on my twentieth birthday, i dedicated my 10 years for God, with a ring as a symbol that this 10 years will be God's time to mold me to be what He want me to be, to prepared my life as what He want me become. today, I still wear this ring, and still I see that He is faithful to me for what I've been through. well, I'm not a good boy, I'm not a saint. too many times I fail, broke His heart, broke some others heart, being enjoyed sin, lazy, wasting time, and guest what? Still He is faithful. not a day, not a moment, not a minute He left me behind. even sometimes I felt alone, maybe most times. but still I know for sure God never turn His eyes from me. Now, 1 more year to finish my vow with God. it doesn't mean that I no longer give my life to God, but i think I'm more ready to face the world and I will enter a new chapter of my life with God.
Back to the topic... right now i just felt fully charged to do what I have to do. feel so much energy in me to finish my jobs, my challenges. feels like I want to say to everything blocks my way : "Just Bring IT!" Like pastor Brian Houston said last Sunday, God promise Joshua to bring him to the promise land, but he didn't tell Joshua that he would face 31 kings to overcome the promise land. I think God has promise that He will bring me to my promise land, but He didn't tell me that I would have to conquer many kings that that block my way to the promise land. He didn't tell doesn't mean it doesn't exist. But i know for sure that He's there when I face those kings, never leave me, and this last 9 years, through what I've been through, He prepared me to conquered those kings...
Lord, be it unto me, according to your words and your plan for my life.
