these last days i cannot focus. times fly by, dont know what to do, have no passion, blank . . . i just fall on some trap again and again. HHGGGGRRRRGGGHHHH . . . i don't think I'm in the right track now. God give me some revelation!!! I need to get something to do... what I did lately is something not getting me closser to my destiny. but, I don't know where else to go...
help me God!!!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Fight Again?
About couple weeks ago, when I got a job to take photo event of graduation of SMPK4 Penabur, I met Hardian. Well, he is a teacher in that school, so no wonder I met him.
When he saw me, directly he ask me if i want to compete in a mix martial art match. by that time, i think it was okay to prepare my self again to a fight, and i think that could motivate me to shape up my body and skill again.
after that moment, i got busy to help JPCC kids camp, oxygen youth camp and JPCC aniversary. non stop event in almost 2 weeks, which means no work out and all you can eat food. i gain much weight in almost 2 weeks. damn it! i just start jogging and work out, gain my shape again. Now, within 2 weeks they are gone. Fat again and..... out of stamina.
Today I just trained in hardian's place. and, that's sucks! I realize that the match is not gonna as easy as I tought. I tought my skill is enough. IT'S NOT!!! damn! cannot back off. the only way is move forward. God help me . . .
When he saw me, directly he ask me if i want to compete in a mix martial art match. by that time, i think it was okay to prepare my self again to a fight, and i think that could motivate me to shape up my body and skill again.
after that moment, i got busy to help JPCC kids camp, oxygen youth camp and JPCC aniversary. non stop event in almost 2 weeks, which means no work out and all you can eat food. i gain much weight in almost 2 weeks. damn it! i just start jogging and work out, gain my shape again. Now, within 2 weeks they are gone. Fat again and..... out of stamina.
Today I just trained in hardian's place. and, that's sucks! I realize that the match is not gonna as easy as I tought. I tought my skill is enough. IT'S NOT!!! damn! cannot back off. the only way is move forward. God help me . . .
Thursday, July 2, 2009
AFFAIR
"I have a girlfriend, but one day somehow I decide to try to have sex with one of my friend. after the sex, I realize that what I've got is far less than what I've expected. actually there was no joy at all, and it hurt my heart more than anything. I love my girlfriend, and our relationship is fine, I just wonder how it feel. and, so much I regret it. I just don't understand why peoples hanging around and sleep with everybody while it hurt? and why that lifestyle so popular? I just can promise myself and God that I would never do that again. especially with my sweet girl. I don't want to ruin my life with sleeping around strangers. this experience just a lesson for me. I would glad if i never did it, but it's done and I not really regret that much, because, now I know. I've learned. and I'm wiser than before."
- D.A - Jakarta
Well, affair is never better than your legal partner, isn't it? and, affair is hurt our self and our integrity. and if your partner know, it will destroy your relationship.
- D.A - Jakarta
Well, affair is never better than your legal partner, isn't it? and, affair is hurt our self and our integrity. and if your partner know, it will destroy your relationship.
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